10:03 PM hmmm.... im feelin emotionally hurt at the moment..
to someone: im really hurt by what you said... even tho you dont seem to know and you probably wont care bout how i feel .. but im really really hurt...

yea.. that's not just the main reason..
owell.. got back my results.. and was really disappointed.. altho i didnt say anything nor did i look sad or whatever.. but i really am feelin depressed.
i worked hard and this is still what i get.. what is becomin of me?>!
i was also really disappointed cos i've put so much trust in god and i feel like its all useless.. im losin faith.. seriously...
please.. dont come up to me and say stuff like" cheer up " .. "its just an exam" or whatever.. cos i feel that it sounds intimidatin.. and i just hate it.
and all those who said stuff which hurt me tremendously .. i just feel like kickin you hard on your a**..
i may be smilin and laughin and actin like i dont give a damn bout what you guys say.. but please.. im still human... give me some respect, will ya?!

i feel like i've no friends at all.. feel so empty within me.. feel like a freak.. my life's a total mess and i seriously hope life was a game and i could exit and resume anytime i want.. how nice would that be..

and i think i've changed my perspective of life.. its probably not that bright and fabulous as i've always thought.. and im beginnin to hate life.

i have so much things on hand to do that i dont know what to start with.. its all just my own doings.. and now... no one's believin me.. not even my so called closest friends..

no one's trustworthy now.. the only one i trust is god.. and i seem to be losin faith.. .what should i do? i really have no idea..
i used to think positively.. but it seems so difficult for me to do that now..


[life has lost its meanin the moment i gave up on it...
i dont really really care bout what you think or say
i think im numb...]
not.a.clown.anymore