11:49 PM currently, im very disappointed. so disappointed that i cried. there's like soo much stress that i have to carry.
 
so this was what happened.. today was supposed to go back school to do class deco.. but i kinda overslept, so didnt manage to go for band prac as well.. so went to do the deco at 1 plus.. that's my fault la.. lol. ..
 
then after that, people were slackin, not doin serious stuff.. and i was also doin the same thing. so, ya i decided that we all didnt have the mood to do it today.. so, i suggested to do it in school tomorrow since i have to come school anyways... so, ya.. not a bloody soul wanted... then i asked yulan and she said ok.. i thought that was like a glimmer of hope or somethin.. in the end she wont be comin... so, im like thinkin, what is this man?! CLASS deco, emphasizin on the CLASS .. and no one's worried.. the judging is like on monday and no one gives a damn. wth?! im not even supposed to be free tomorrow.. and i actually gave up my time to do these stuff.. makes me feel dumb cryin for this class when they dont even care.. i feel so helpless.. and this is not the first time i cried cos of this kinda stress.. 3rd time in fact.. and irony, how i actually cried for this pathetic class that i wish i can get out of ...
 
actually, i cant figure out why im cryin cos of this thing.. but i think i just felt like i had the responsibility to do this.. cos im the welfare in charge... and seein things not done to its best simply makes me feel like breakin down...
 
and wow.. no one's doin anythin tomorrow.. and i actually wanted to jsut give up and heck about this time's competition .. but no idea why.. i just wanna get it done.. ya.. so im doin it ALONE tomorrow, at ting's house.. and for you information, ting happens to be from a different class.. wow. im doin 2C deco at a 2E-ian's house.. wow.
 
think ting knew that i was really sad and sent me an sms sayin "relax la...just think that sec 3 no need same class liao" ... maybe she's right. bleh
 
even our own class people says that 2c sucks.. so what's the point ?! and i dont see a point to why they like sayin that.. and writes it EVERYWHERE...  talk about unity.. i think their attitude totalleh digust me. and im really hopin for a change in 2c .. which i doubt will ever happen. so forget it.
 
enough of this..
today's service was very good.. and i think it seriously did touch me and make me realize that i have to focus my life on jesus and do more of what he pleases. pst kong was hilarious.. made me laugh till i had cramps. haha.
 
after that went home with carrie, cw,henry and daniel. john went off early to watch mean girls with his sis. lucky guy. lol..ya, was tryin to amuse them with my very funny jokes.. which apparently, to them, didnt sound too funny. lol... then we ate that lemon warheads sweet.. which was SO sour.. and i cant believe they can eat it like its nothin. funny people.. so they suan-ded me for not havin the guts to eat it. but i ate one anyways.. ya.. so, i was brave. laha
 
yup,. im off.. need to do deco tomorrow after school ... and still need to go for the fiesta band performance thing. think it'll be fun .
 
p.s. hope that person who dont like me will just stop showin it so obviously..  cos, im tryin to change and there you are, tryin to agitate me. yuck.
 
you.are.my.source.and.my.salvation.nothin.compares.to.you