9:12 PM kill me again. haha. im kiddin

so, today was kinda emotional for me. yea.. cried. weak me.. all cos of 2c again.. not like i blame you guys or what la.. but im just stressed out i guess. yep.. so, early in the morning, we forced the class to sing the song.. the response wasnt that bad tho.. was kinda glad.. so yep.. was havin high high hopes bout this performance thing.then after school was total crap la.. like all of them were leavin and no one's takin charge at all.. yea.. so,i think i had this selfish thought: why must i be in charge when im welfare ic and not functions ic .. so i just hecked everythin.. so amazinly, no one else took charge and ya.. everyone went off. wow? yea, wow.

so after that, i was like plungin into depression la.. closer friends could tell. i didnt wanna cry in front of them.. so i went to the toilet and saw cheryl and yuan zhi.. they asked if i was cryin and boom, i burst into tears.. emotional me. ew.so i cried a little and decided to rush for sectionals.. and poof, before i even went into the band room, i cried again. this time was much worst. ginny, shayne and ting came to comfort me... think ginny was really good at cheerin me up. at least i felt better.. so after that i was full of drive again, went to canteen to do a lil plannin for the rehearsal tomorrow.. so, bleh..

hmm yea.. sometimes i'll think whether im really doin what im supposed to do, or am i just bein some super busybody and doin all the stuffs that no one else possibly wanted.. and ya.. think i've really been very very disappointed with 2c before .. and this is like the thousandth time i've cried for the class la.. and i really dont blame the class for this tho.. i think its just my own problem.. im inflictin too much stress upon myself i suppose... its all just part of me.. to do what im SUPPOSED to do, or what others expect me to do.. yea.. so, i think im just a busybody, that's all.. owell..

but somethin that i thought was really heartwarmin was that people actually sms to tell you they're sorry and stuff.. even the person you probably thought was totalleh against this performance.. and i just wanna say thanks la.. yea.. and think thru this time, i really know people better, like who really cares .. and wanna thank yulan, soohwee and ting also, for cheerin me up and plannin with me. lol. thanks. hee..

i really really hope that tomorrow's rehearsal will go well.. at least, people will turn up and just SING please. is singin so difficult?.. it doesnt matter whether you sing outta tune.. just sing! yea.. so, my conclusion is that 2c 's not totalleh hopeless.heh. im still harbourin hope that we'll be united ey?!? lol.. dont prove me wrong..

ok, enough bout class stuff.. so, i reached home at 8,went shoppin with ting. heh.. [ see, i told you im really fine now. laha] went to buy some farewell presents.. pretty interestin.. lol.so ya.. i think im gonna be SO broke pls.. donate money to me?? ya well, still got loads of stuff to buy .. so, i officially declare bankruptcy..so, stop askin me for donation!! hehe..

oh ok. so i think that's all. tomorrow's got chinese test and i think im gonna be so dead.. so i shall go sleep and wake up at 3 .. hope i can make it.. if not, that's really the end.. ahha.. so ta people and to those havin tests tomorrow, god bless..

outta here... weeeeee