2:41 AM today was quite a packed day. or at least comparing it to other days where i merely rot and die away at home. owell, life still has meaning for people like me.
hmmm woke up at like 12 plus.. then was rushing cos was supposed to meet yulan go buy materials for the wand needed for this sunday's harry potter mystery outreach. was quite dumb la. ended up buying alot of canes. heeh. the market near my house is sucha cosy place.:) evveryone is so nice, so much love. lol

yar. then after that went churhc for east cluster prayer meeting. hmm kinda ok.. tho it was really really cold. brrr.. yar. then after that went to wisma's food republic with yulan. oh ya.. by right should be going to chinablack with john tonight. but miserable me, struggled abit bit. then decided not to, even tho i really really wanted to go .. heh. heard sean was there too?!. aiya wasted! ha. nah jk..

ya. back to food republic. its seriously a super cool place la. as in the other than the furnishings, the food are like really yummy too.. not liek the typical food court we have in mind. and the hokkien mee is mouth watering. heeh. really delicious. but totally adore the mango pudding ice thing. it was totally heavenly. should go try it ! . heh... its at wisma level 4 btw.

anyways i realize so quickly, half of my holidays are gone. and i realize i haven done much for the society. eh eh that sounds abit yan zhong but yar.. heard den was helping out at some blood donation drive thing>! i mean, even he is doin something meaningful, i should start finding things to do eh>!/

want to find a job quite desperately la. but unless the employer is super free and easy and is fine with me having last minute hiccups and leaves, its least likely i'll find any jobs at all. but well, like what i told yl, i dont want to continue to duo luo xia qu .. haa. i need to do some constructive things to do! haa

aiya back to where i was when i said i realized time was passin very quickly. .im no longer sec 3!! no more reason to slack cos i'll have to work hard for that cert soon!! hmm.. this whole year has been quite a monotonous year for me. not that there wasnt fun and endearing moments, but just, for some reasons, im not totally enthralled by any of those events. maybe the only thing i can proudly say is that i've become more matured in christ?..yar. maybe just that. ...wa really leh! i was just thinking back and there was really no highlight this year.. haa.. quite miserable ar..ha.. but i had a relatively happy year. making new friends in a new class, building stronger bonds with many many people, learning to give in, learning to have faith, learning to trust?!. haa. oh gosh sounds like some sec1's blog entry which is tryin to act mature. but yar.. thats how i feel. tho it was a really boring year, but it was pretty fruitful. learned quite a number of things. truth be told, this might be one of my most fruitful year . !

.. i was just asking yl today on the train where she thinks she will be 2 or 3 years later. then she says she dont know. probably thats a good answer, cos we never know what the future holds. i quite anticipate the moment where i'll be able to go to a new environment, mix with new people.. i detest living by the norm and sticking to the usual and doin things in the most comfortable way. like sheila, i want to go to a jc where i'll have nobody that i know at all. go to a school where no anglicans have gone before. :)what a challenge. maybe acj? or aj? or sa? no idea. but im quite sure yuo'll never find me in tj. haa. that place is like infested with anglicans la for goodness' sake. no fun going there. lol

i dont know what you'll call people like me, but i really cant stand people who are over dependant on things.or friends even. for example, in the past when tingting didnt have anyone to go home with, she'd whine and really get upset. and i couldnt understand why. why cant she just go home herself? for me, i'd probably prefer some solitude. haa. but well, i grow to realize that some people are just very dependent on friends, company .. ! and i just have to accept it .lol..

im waiting for a miracle. its possible!!! :)