2:49 AM wooha. christmas is over and its gonna be a new year in a day's time.. ha time literally flies lor..

anyways yesterday was thanksgiving cg and we had a greeat time. hahaaa.. altho the video was abit lame. eh! but im not the producer hor! peter didnt want to put his name so i ended up being the producer. haaa. and after all those emo + heartwarming speeches by our dearest xiaoting, we had our bbq!.. haaa. kinda budgeted at a pathetic 70 bucks. but we had lotsa fun laa.. bbqing outside chee's house.. and it was the most smoky bbq i ever had. i spent like half the time dodging the smoke and teared so many times while trying to flip the chicken wings. stupid smoke.

talking bout thanksgiving, really really wanna thank xiaoting.she's been a totally rawkin cgleader..! and leading e357 may not be the easiest job to do, but she's done an awesome job!>
xiaoting, even tho we may not be nice and pleasant angels, nor are we the most desired ppl that cellgroupleaders would want to lead, we THANK YOU.. for your patience, your love, your amazing ability to communicate and befriend each and everyone of us. and like the card i gave you, you're definitely the bestfriend cum great leader to all of us.muack to you xiaoting... :)

and above all, i wanna thank God for this whole amazing year,.. all the experience i had. the disappointments.. the anguish.. the discouragement..and so so much more negative things. it made me grew so much stronger in my character. and that in all these, i can still look up to my daddy above, trusting that there will be a sunshine after the rain. :) i really think God's love is amazing. dont you think so?.. sometimes i find it hard to love some of the people around me. but God loves them just like anyone else.. and even tho sometimes i feel so unlovable, God still loves me. and seriously, i cant imagine the mess that my life would be in if i hadnt come to know God.. :) muack to you daddy! .


a new year is starting soon. and im quite thrilled, but not quite thrilled at the same time. quite a huge contradiction. but i have my reasons la.. im thrilled cos im sec 4! haaa. im gonna be a senior! not sec 3 senior but sec4 senior! oh freak. so exciting. and like what i always tell yulan and ting they all, we sec 4 liao lei! we can do anything in school.! muaha. im not talking bout colouring my hair and scolding the teachers la.! i mean, we can make enormous fashion statements/faux pas and not feel paiseh or what. COS WE'RE SEC4! .!! haa. ok doesnt make much sense, but aiya you get what i mean la.aa hhaaa.. and im also thrilled to study again.. maybe cos i've been abstaining from books these 2 months.so it suddenly feels exciting that you're studying again. haa come to think of it i can barely remember all my math. cos sin tan toacahsoh. oh what else?

eh but sec 4 means mugging hard too. why.? cos there's that dreaded big fat Os thats waiting for us at the end of the year. and i cant afford to screw up during olevels. so i gotta mug like crazy. im going to be a clever, intelligent, hardworking nerd. :) ok la, at least, i HOPE to be one.baha

and oh even tho its too early to think of where to go after Os.. i cant help but think think think. haaa. i was quite sure of goin acjc one lei. then some people come tell me blahblahblah and i have second thoughts. eh who knows i might end up at some poly.ha!
actually i still remembered that during sec 1, i wanted to go vjc or sajc.oh and my parents were even contemplating bout going overseas. then sec 2 i wanted to go sajc or acjc. then sec 3 wanted go acjc. and now i cant even make up my mind whether i wanna go jc or poly..this just goes to show how fickle i can be.but well.. im really full of expectancy about the future. i guess everyone is?? ..

anyways tomorrow is the last day of the year. actually technically speaking.. its already the last day of the year. and i still havent plan on what to do, waha.i seriously dont want to spend it squeezing with the crowd at orchard.and having to endure facing banglas who feel ecstatic bout spraying those snow thingy on young innocent girls.(like me.) but cally seems keen on this bangla dodging affair. haaa.. but anyways just hope to spend it meaningfully with people i love. :)<-- so cheesy!!!! lol

hmmm its like 4am in the morning already. and tho im still not feeling tired, i have to sleep la! haaa.. ta

zhangtingting. im so so proud of you! :)