2:41 AM just a thought.

so many people find it easier to think negatively than positively.It seems like alot of effort is needed to think positive thoughts, whereas negative thinking comes easily and uninvited. no?
i realized that if you have been brought up in a happy and positive atmosphere, where people's value revolve more on personal expectation rather than others' expectation, it'll be easier for you to think positively and expect success. If you have been brought up under poor or difficult situations, you will probably go on expecting difficulties and failure.

i rmb pst Kong once preached on something like that. that if we think failure, we'll definitely fail. and i really think so too.! our circumstances and lives will probably mirror whatever thoughts that we have.
If you believe that you are going to fail, you will unconsciously sabotage every opportunity to succeed. If you are afraid of meeting new people or having close relationships, you will do everything to avoid people and relationships, and then complain that you are lonely and nobody loves you.i mean, what for?

people who think that ending your life is the best alternative is, sad to say, the dumbest people of all. i seriously feel like you've missed out so much.! your friend's love was there for you, your future lies so brightly ahead, there's so many people caring for you. but amidst all you can just adamantly presume that ending your life = end of all troubles., well, it was really because you first gave up on these love care and your very own future! all these were there. but you chose not to look at them. not to accept them, but to look on the negativity which more often than not, is just a hallucination on you part!its basically just your oversensitivity my dear.!dont think that everyone hates you, or we're always mad at you or what . cos the fact is we all love you to bits.! im not exactly good with my words. but i really hope you get what im saying.

im really sleepy. so the entry will end abruptly here. aha

p.s.i hope the person that i hope will read this, will read this . ha.